The first conversation

"First when there's nothing But a slow glowing dream That your fear seems to hide Deep inside your mind" Flashdance...What A Feeling - Irene Cara

"Hi, Did you get my note? The bookn't is online :)"

"Yes, but hadn't had a chance to read it yet."

Of course, I think to myself. It's half past 8 in the morning, and I sent it last night around 11PM. It does make sense. Still, I know it, but I'm still disappointed. Or am I disappointed, or do I feel something else?

"Why did you choose the term drama? I mean I know what drama is, but what did you mean" I'm asked.

"I chose drama because my definition of drama is - an accumulation of tensions and conflicts...

" I start answering, but then change the strategy. " wait, How do you interpret drama?" I ask, suddenly.

"Well, I know drama as this thing we do in our own daily lives, and there is also the definition of a show."

"Exactly! I'm glad you interpret it this way. Its exactly what I wanted the interpretation to be. It's the same - the show and our daily life experiences... when the show was democratised, it allowed us to relate dot what happens to us as drama as-well".

I then continue, " In its origins, the drama is a show about what people go through in their daily lives, or perhaps not all people, just the VIP. In the beginning, it wasn't entertainment. It was a social tool for transformation, a tutorial or presentation of knowledge to build skills. it later became entertainment."

Read more about the origins of drama in part four of the innovators' drama

This was the first conversation I had after I shared the innovators' drama with my first brain trust. A team of friends I asked to look through the ideas I presented and share their thoughts. Naturally, I was impatient, so I called the first one on my own. Sometimes you really need the attention, and it can't wait. It feels so urgent. You actually force people to make a comment.

I'm not sure why, perhaps it was the reason the i pushed this conversation instead of waiting for it to occur spontaneously, but i felt sensitive to the tone - I heard doubts. it could have been the early morning, perhaps the conversation interrupted something else, I know I should be glad and lucky to have a friend acknowledge my enthusiasm so quickly. Perhaps the timing was not entirely comfortable but wasn't expressed. In any case, I heard doubts, and I didn't hear the enthusiasm i imagined.

Why is that? Is it still early? Am i wrong? Is my work rubbish? Maybe I'm just reading the signs all wrong to fit my own insecurities. For sure, I don't know what exactly was the context because i didn't ask. I was eager to get the feedback, and that's precisely what I got, which was exactly what I asked for. so what am I complaining about?

As we present our ideas, and thoughts and of course, early sketches, so many emotions will accompany its impossible to know for sure what flavor of crit we will receive. If it's an engaged opinion we will receive questions (a sign of interest) and suggestive thoughts ( a sign of empathy) but even if we asked it, what we really wanted was an all amazement reaction.

We ask for the professional feedback, but we want emotional feedback, but they don't work together, and this gap between the two things we want at the same time brings with it a myriad of feelings. Which we need to acknowledge, accept, and identify.

I got exactly what I wanted, and as for the amazement. It's too soon to learn. time will tell

These feelings are part of the innovators' drama. They ground us when we are high on enthusiasm. But we deliberately asked for them, so we should be delighted we are getting what we wanted, only the intermediary step is not what we wanted. We wanted the grand finale. But we are still on our way there.

Curious to know why I chose the term drama?

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